This post will by my 1818th entry on The American Zombie since the first on July 4th, 2006.
In the past month I have found myself reflecting, heavily, on this thing I've done....this blog. At times I've been extremely proud and other times I've felt like it was an enormous burden,
even a threat to myself and my family. Truth is, in the past few months it's felt like an exceptional burden.
It started it as an experiment. Upon the completion of the documentary,
Left Behind, I made with Dr. Vince Morelli, I came to the conclusion that the root of this City's problem was its education system and the root of our education system's problem was corruption. I discovered there was not a lack of money in the Orleans Parish School System but that the funds were simply being stolen at nearly every turn to the great detriment of our children.
I figured the blog was a way to possibly expose the entrenched corruption that exists within so many layers of New Orleans/Louisiana government. I was naive enough to think that I could affect change simply by exercising the powers of the First Amendment.
From that original "thunk" I have devoted an enormous amount of time, energy and money into this experiment and there's not a day that goes by I don't think about it....wondering if it's worth it...feeling guilty because I've neglected one or more stories...thinking about how much more effective it might be if I devoted all of my time to it....worrying about who I might have pissed off and if it would affect my income stream....wondering how it will affect my children as they become adults....
.....it weighs on me a lot. Lately it has weighed on me more than usual.
I have to admit that I've reached a point where I don't think my efforts are actually affecting social and/or governmental change and if I'm not doing that I don't think it's worth the effort. As my father used to tell me, "Don't half-ass do anything, Son. Otherwise you're just pissing in the wind."
Truth is, I feel hopeless.
When I started AZ I was writing under the assumption that our justice system was...just. I believed that if I simply told the truth and exposed criminal activity, city, state and federal law enforcement officials would pay attention and rectify the problems.
I believed justice was truly blind and the rule of law was real, the system simply needed people to exercise the First Amendment in order to set the wheels in motion.
What I believed, in the beginning, was that there was an
avenue for recourse if the average citizen just woke up from their slumber (hence "The American Zombie") and cast a a light on the corruption that existed in their community.
Now, I'm not so sure.
The corruption within this state is intrinsic...hereditary even. It is so prevalent, we have come to simply accept it as the modus operandi.
Any reform we saw on a local level, in post-Katrina New Orleans, is a faded dream. Even t
he dreamers were defiled.
Pay to play has woven itself into the fabric of our government for so long
it's now categorized on the "insiders'" sliding scale of significance. On the national barometer of corruption,
we've actually managed to go so far off the reservation we can't even be quantified....we're an anomaly.
The collusion between the
oil and gas industry,
the trial attorneys who would have us believe they are fighting for the public's best interest and t
he politicians who take both of their money is an unholy trinity
promising salvation at every turn.
They lie. They fucking lie. But we keep buying their bullshit.
If you read this blog...even if you don't...what I hope you will understand is that none of these people have the public's best interest at heart. It doesn't benefit any of them....any of them....to create a healthy, educated, populous in an environmentally safe Louisiana. They want idiots and this state is ripe by design. Idiots more concerned about what two grown men choose to do with their sexuality than a Congressman fleecing a public university.
We are losing everything that is near and dear to our hearts in this state...our higher public education system, our public hospital system, our coastline.....
yet we bicker about partisanship instead of actually holding our public officials accountable.
We are trapped inside a juvenile interpretation of the Hegelian Dialectic.
The corruption in this State and City is insulated, obscured, behind the political dichotomy of left/right. In New Orleans, democrats are
protected from prosecution by the local political machine while on the state level republicans' transgressions are overlooked and written off as "
minor issues".
They are all stealing public money. All of them. They are all using tax dollars as their own 0% interest, no money down, no principle owed...bank.
Bill Cassidy
stole money from the state of Louisiana. Diana Bajoie s
tole money from the state of Louisiana. One is a republican, the other a democrat. Neither one has been prosecuted or even officially investigated.
Patrick Juneau
illegally billed the state of Louisiana. He is not a democrat or republican, he's just an opportunistic old man that will do whatever either reigning "party master" asks him to do in order to enrich his own bank account.
We are standing on the deck of ship, floating in a sea of corruption with no rudder, no mast, no sail, holes in the hull, arguing about the weather while our politicians take the cargo and
sail off in lifeboats.
In the matters I listed above, I think the evidence is clear on all fronts, at least enough to justify investigations by our state regulatory officials...the
state auditor ,
state inspector general,
state attorney general.
Thing is, I've busted my own ass on at least two of these stories and liberated information on the third while many other reporters busted their ass to do the same. The Fourth Estate has fulfilled it's duty, not just my small contribution but the body, whole. The evidence is convincing, overwhelming on the issues listed above.
LSU would never conduct an honest audit on Cassidy. No university would. Not Loyola,
Tulane, or even
UNO as it fades into obscurity. They are all deeply entrenched in political interests on both city and state levels. University employees will not talk to their own institution's investigators for fear of losing their job. These things need to be audited by our state regulatory agencies....it's their job, it's their duty.
For these regulatory agencies to ignore even one of these issues, much less all three, is a bellwether as to the state of our State.
This...these moments....are where we traditionally fail, Louisiana. Let's not fail again. Let's not kick the can down the road and allow business as usual.
We have a problem here. It's systemic. It's destructive. Please. Please. Please....investigate.